Done Looking for VALIDATION

This post may be my most controversial post yet. Honestly this post is more of a wake up call.

Ok, first off, I want to say I’m not thirsty or asking for drama. So do not be like searching for some tea cause there’s none

I always wanted to fit in, feel like I belonged somewhere. and secondary school was really tough.A lot of people don’t believe me when I say this and honestly I dont know why…I am an Introvert. I really like my own space.

People who know me that I hide my feelings a lot and that’s just really annoying acting like I’m good when I have a lot in my mind. Yes it also affects my saxophone life.

I wanted to fit in so bad that I was afraid of what people would think of me. Always been judged for being unique and myself. Talking to the wrong people can really mess you up. So I’m done

Now some of you are like, Ife , this post had nothing to do with sax, that’s because dynamipills stands for a lot of things :

  • Growth
  • Sharing Positivity
  • Owning your sax life

How will I be able to own my sax life, grow and share positivity and be myself when i am afraid to be myself. when I am afraid of Not being Enough.

Everyone has their blows and their victories. you have a decison to make, what do I want.

I get so low sometimes that I bash myself and I criticize myself so bad.

The hurt from the past should not should affect the dream of the future.

I’ve met people, even in the sax industry that bring me down and make me feel like I’m not enough or whatever. People do that.

I have to know who I am and my values. I know myself, thanks to a lot of soul finding this 2020. Now I have to love myself and forget the cock and bull story people say to bring me down

So I IFEOLUWA, I am done

I am enough, it’s not about the people who dont get me. Do I support me ?

If you reading this and you feel it enough or you dont fit in. Always remember what is inside of you is greater than what is around you. You are strong and you deserve give let yourself know that at all times.

To get to the top, you have to lose some stuff, you cannot please everyone. The people that will support you, you dont need to tell them. they will be there.

So dont wait for the world to ask for permission. take the whole world by surprise and be you but remember not everyone like surprises but that doesnt mean that it’s a bad surprise

Manifesting Things into Existence.

#DAYSOFSAXBLOGMAS

Now Before I begin, I know we all have our beliefs. I believe in God, so just have that in mind. I am still gonna say what’s in my heart regardless.

This post is going to be a whole different post. A preach to the Choir kind of post

Habakkuk 2:2 – And the Lord answered me and said “Write the vision and make it plain on tablets, that he may run that readeth it”

Manifesting things into existence is so important because there is power in the tongue. The person who really taught me about the power of Manifesting was my Mom. She always says that “There’s nothing too big for God and ask and it shall be given to you.”

I know that Life can be really messed up and gives a blurry vision of our relationship with God.And with Christmas on the way, and also the new year, it’s just important to manifest great things into the new year because 2020…its been real!

The fact is God loves you regardless and on the 2nd Day of Saxblogmas, I hope you realise Gods love and find that special connection with Him

Dealing with Anxiety (SAX POV)

#DaysofSaxBLOGMAS

Hi, my name is Ife and I have a confession to make, well its not really a secret, I mean its the title of this blog post

I deal with anxiety in my sax life ..ok I said it

Being able to talk about my anxiety in my #saxlife is really helpful but we all know that talking about it is one thing and actually doing something about it is a whole different level.

I’ve been a lover of Music since I was 11, I loved writing songs and stories but being different and addressed as “weird” or “dramatic” and that kinda, actually not kinda, I took the backseat in my music life

My Anxiety is the Classic #NotEnough scenario, and it’s really annoying because I hear that voice at the back of my freaking head but nope I just had to second guess myself.

But as the days go by, I fall more and more in love with myself and what I do and also talking to the right person.it really helped me get my confidence on track and just be happy with everything I do

Let your standpoint be growth

Your first YouTube video is gonna suck

really bad

but its gonna get better if you let it

Dont be that guy that only makes rice and stew every single day…..nooooo

Be that person that had growth

I had to surround myself with the right set of people, even family. Dont go to your small minded uncle that thinks you should only be a Doctor for advice when you clearly want to be a musician.

And ok let’s define friends. Any friend that doesnt support you is not your friend

Now you guys can be hi- hey friends but just clear the negativity. This I had to learn by a term I love Debunking.

One thing that helps my mental state and just my being is listening to music and writing. Cooking is a great stress reliever.

I started working out ( that’s all I have to say really)

Take one day at a time

you got this ok

How I Created My Sax Routine.

I’m not perfect ok…I’m not and in the midst of my imperfections there is an Iota of Change. The moment I decided to take my music one step at a time and create a great sax routine.

For me, a sax routine is a guide, and the two values that I reach stand for in creating a sax routine are Creativity and Consistency.

Make your sax routine

The other values or qualities of a Saxophone routine are

  1. Progressive
  2. Disciplined
  3. Understanding
  4. Realistic
  5. Fun
  6. Personal

Having a bad saxophone routine makes learning the saxophone repetitive, dormant, and just MEH😕

Repeat after me

NO MORE BAD SAX ROUTINE

No more…not in 2020 😑 not anymore

Basically you need to ask yourself 3 Questions.

  • What are your short term music Goals?
  • What are your long term music goals ?
  • How are you going to acheive these goals ?

Knowing the whats, the whys and the hows really give more insight and direction when creating a good sax routine

For me,

One of my short term goals was to understand music theory and my long term goal is to take my music one note at a time

On a side note, I have designed a simple sax plan for absolute begineers trying to find direction in where to start in their music journey. I hope that the little I know will give you a sense of direction in your music journey ♥️💗💖🎷✌🏿

Basically your sax routine should be

  • 20% warmup: dont underestimate a good warm up exercise
  • 50% learning something new( scales, techniques and so much more)
  • 20% A new song that will challenge you
  • 10% Just being fun and enjoying yourself, think of it as a reward for completing your sax routine.

I can’t promise you that just WRITING a sax routine will bring forth results

But I can 100000000% guarantee that with a great sax plan, a sax routine and Consistency and creativity, you will see progressive growth

I CAN’T STRESS THIS ENOUGH

EMBRACE YOUR HUMBLE BEGINNINGS (Sax POV)

Love every phase

Now, I would consider myself as an open minded person, believe it or not but it bothers me when all people talk about is their high status and ‘professionalism ‘ in the saxophone industry. I mean sure, flaunt it if you got it, but do not create a mirage of the beginning phase being a crappy phase that is always excluded in a Sax story.

The main reason why it “Bothers” me is because I feel like people fail to see the Big Picture. I Got so engrossed with trying to be a perfect saxophonist that I didn’t really enjoy playing the saxophone anymore.

It became those “just get it over with “ kinda things …you know, like university 😑( stay in school kids.)

On a serious note, Music became a chore for me…just MEH🙄!

At that point, I knew that i forgot about the fun insecure shy 11yr old girl who felt like she didnt have friends and just ended up with a sax .I forgot how happy I was to learn and make mistakes and no pressure to be perfect. to be yourself


I get it, The whole persona of being a Nigerian saxophonist

  • Some of us want to play and get paid
  • some want to make sax covers and be in the music booth
  • some work in the gospel industry

But don’t deny yourself the pleasure of knowing where and how you started.

Going down memory lane reminded me why I love music so much. it’s a healing experience, an expression of love. a message from the heart. For me, that’s the definition of music and I forgot that.

That Drive, that passion was what I was missing in my pursuit for perfection or whatever that phase of my sax life was😅

Be who you are

Being a begineer doesn’t make you less of a saxophonist. It is even the most crucial phase of your sax journey because it can make or break your learning curve.

I do hope that wherever you are in your sax journey that you embrace your humble beginnings and make a part of your sax life and journey

HOW LONG OR HOW WELL?

Time or Consistency

Heyyyyyyyyyyy 😋😊Dynami Sqaud, hope you are good. well at the time of writing this post, we have 57 YouTube subscribers, and more than 80 views on my most recent upload.

I’m sure you can hear me screaming because I am so lost for words, its times like these that really show why I love what I do

Cheers to us because I know that things will get better by God’s Grace.

So lets get to the real deal of the matter

so I got a comment from someone who had his reservations and it resulted him talking about…sorry bragging out how many years in his music degree. ….yup it was a very uncomfortable conversation for me.

It got me thinking. What is it with people boasting about how many years they have played the saxophone. I’ve seen beginners and intermediates that are really doing an amazing job.

so what the Brag about ?


it’s like people saying “Do you know who I am )

who are you ?🙄

Let's be clear on something 
TIME DOES NOT MAKE YOU A MASTER
EXPERIENCE DOES

I Think that a lot of Nigerian saxophonists don’t see the beauty of being a begineer

I have been playing the saxophone for 7173547….I’m just kidding😅.

I have been playing the sax for 7 years but I still have a long way to go

so what is the brag about ?


I believe in consistency a lot, I have seen people with 12 years of “experience and a very bad tone. I have also seen how beginners with an amazing start, a guide that is not a comprehensive and detailed

I believe with the right materials and a great teacher, and an amazing sax routine

YOU CAN DO WONDERS!!

So dont let anyone fool you

Enjoy being a begineer, honestly it’s a critical phase and it shows you how you started.

so yeah 😘😘

love yourself and be who you are

Are you making MUSIC or NOISE?

Remember how your secondary classmates would be talking and someone would come and say ‘you guys are making noise.”

Or the band instructor would spot out that person who is ‘off key’

Well today we are entering a more sensitive topic in music, a question that seems and maybe is an insult to every musician….well except rock and roll of course🤐.

We all have an idea of what noise is… the first thing that comes to mind is unpleasant. whether you have perfect pitch or not, Noise is an unpleasant sound, the frequency doesnt just sit well with our ears.

LETTER TO ME

Letter to Me

I feel lost but yet I have a compass.
I feel like I am drowning but I’m not even in an Ocean.
Not a drop of water in sight and my destination is right in front of me
So why do I feel disconnected from myself and the apathy overwhelms me



I know my beginning and the end. Like a ship without the Captain but the seas are at ease, like I’m going the right way and I feel not in control.



What is Wrong with me ?
Why does my head play mind games with me, telling me that I am not enough
Why does my heart get scared and shuts the door to Faith
Why do I feel on the edge but I know I am safe
Why does this uneasiness make me feel puzzled and confused.


I tell myself that I’ve done everything but I know I havent done much.
I feel the walls closing in and I have no where to run
A pen and a horn are my weapons but I always forget.
That the Greatest weapon I have is me knowing my life is in His Hands.



So to the mind genie in my Head
All your words were lies because God told me that his plans are of good and not of evil, He will be by my side.

The truth is
The way a man thinkers so he will be, the power of the tongue is a strong.
I say what I am from now on



And to my Beautiful heart that is afraid to soar, forgive and love
The scars of the past dont define you
The people who dont believe in you dont dictate to you.
The dream extinguishers can’t put out the flame that makes you mine, no matter how hard they try.



So be brave, have courage and be kind
You are special, my heart no doubt
the feeling of fear is an illusion, it’s a lie that tells you that you can’t, won’t and shouldn’t.

So don’t be afraid, don’t let what people say to you be the definition of who you are

look straight and be confident

be kind but firm

and be yourself .



Every Body Blow your Trumpet

#EndSARS

I have always been Proud to be a Nigerian, our culture and heritage has and will always be in my Heart. There are good days and there are not so great days, police Brutality, something that has lingered for way to long

Talking about it was painful, but fighting for what we believe in was necessary and it was so beautiful to see Nigerian Creatives especially Saxophonists use their talents to ‘soro soke

The message was loud and Clear, END POLICE BRUTALITY!!!

It truly a beautiful thing to see different saxophonist parade the streets and played a part in the end sars movement.

it was Truly so uplifting and empowering. The End SARS has taught me a valuable lesson and that lesson is the power of using your voice and speaking up.

Regardless of anything, it was important for me to take time off social media, pray for the families that have been affected and think about how I can be better as a Nigerian Citizen. WE ALL NEED TO DO BETTER.

The power of music is stronger than you think.

Ok, so Disclaimer, I do not own rights to the pictures used in this write up, these are amazing saxophonist that really inspire me and so you should check them out!🎷

Temilayo Abodurin

F.u.n.m.i.k.e

Kunle Ajayi

Lots of Jazzy XOXOs