This post may be my most controversial post yet. Honestly this post is more of a wake up call.
Ok, first off, I want to say I’m not thirsty or asking for drama. So do not be like searching for some tea cause there’s none
I always wanted to fit in, feel like I belonged somewhere. and secondary school was really tough.A lot of people don’t believe me when I say this and honestly I dont know why…I am an Introvert. I really like my own space.
People who know me that I hide my feelings a lot and that’s just really annoying acting like I’m good when I have a lot in my mind. Yes it also affects my saxophone life.
I wanted to fit in so bad that I was afraid of what people would think of me. Always been judged for being unique and myself. Talking to the wrong people can really mess you up. So I’m done
Now some of you are like, Ife , this post had nothing to do with sax, that’s because dynamipills stands for a lot of things :
- Growth
- Sharing Positivity
- Owning your sax life
How will I be able to own my sax life, grow and share positivity and be myself when i am afraid to be myself. when I am afraid of Not being Enough.
Everyone has their blows and their victories. you have a decison to make, what do I want.
I get so low sometimes that I bash myself and I criticize myself so bad.
The hurt from the past should not should affect the dream of the future.
I’ve met people, even in the sax industry that bring me down and make me feel like I’m not enough or whatever. People do that.
I have to know who I am and my values. I know myself, thanks to a lot of soul finding this 2020. Now I have to love myself and forget the cock and bull story people say to bring me down
So I IFEOLUWA, I am done
I am enough, it’s not about the people who dont get me. Do I support me ?
If you reading this and you feel it enough or you dont fit in. Always remember what is inside of you is greater than what is around you. You are strong and you deserve give let yourself know that at all times.
To get to the top, you have to lose some stuff, you cannot please everyone. The people that will support you, you dont need to tell them. they will be there.
So dont wait for the world to ask for permission. take the whole world by surprise and be you but remember not everyone like surprises but that doesnt mean that it’s a bad surprise
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